God has turned it around.

Today I realize how broken I am. Mind you, this is not a new revelation! The first 5 minutes or so of waking up were fine but it went down hill from there.
I haven't felt good in over 3 weeks. I am going to the doctor on Monday. I'm hormonal. My house is a wreck. I'm not done unpacking. Some of my boys seems to have forgotten how to talk to me in a respectful way. I feel like an utter failure. It's been a rough morning. I can hear my girlfriend telling me that this is all just an attack from Satan. :) She and I have our first Titus 2 meeting, that we are co-leading, coming up this Thursday! I can hear her saying "You said he would doing this."
I snapped at the boys all morning. I know I broke their little hearts. Before they left, with my husband, we were good. I apologized for my mood. Gave them big hugs and kisses. Smooched all over their sweet little faces. They told me they forgave me and that they love me. So I sit here ... crying and broken. I read Beth Moore and her daughter Amanda Jones' blog. You can find the link on the right, LPM blog. I read the PMS ... Please More Spirit entry. You'll find that back in February. Yes, I do need more spirit. Especially today. After I picked myself up off the floor in total submission and repentance, I said to God "Please quicken me to remember that the moment I jump off course." He instantly played for me of a beautiful song. It's still playing in my head right now and it prompted me to write this entry. It is a song that I am sure you have heard but the version in my head is from Shane and Shane. From their Clean CD. Here are the lyrics. I am going to see if I can find a link to have you actually hear them sing it. Enjoy and be blessed.

Your Grace Is Sufficient
Your grace is sufficient for me
Your strength is made perfect
When I am weak
And all that I cling to
I lay at Your feet
Your grace is sufficient for me

His grace IS sufficient. Please More Spirit. The Bible tells us that He lives inside of those who call upon His name. He is active and living inside of me. I need to let Him work. More of Him and less of me. I truly need to lay everything at His feet. He is big enough to handle it all. He is mighty enough to save me. He loves me. He cares for me. God is so merciful and kind. My Heavenly Father wants me to be obedient, to be happy, to be kind, to be faithful, to be gentle, to be careful with my tongue. He wants the best for me, He wants me to live Christ-like. I wouldn't give my morning 2 cents on that. But His grace is sufficient and His strength is made perfect when I am weak. Boy, am I weak. I am thankful that God forgave me. I am thankful that my boys forgave me. Today is a good day.

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