Let me just say something here... God is good! He never ceases to amaze me. I have had such privilege getting to know Him, that it takes my breath away. Lately most of my conversations with God have been in my head. Simply because I can't utter the words out loud. My throat tightens, my eyes well up. His goodness literally takes my breath away. I am humbled beyond words. I am humbled beyond anything. You see, I know me. I know where I have been. I know what I have done. I know the ugliest part of me and so does God. Yet He still sees me as a precious child. As one of His own. As the apple of His eye. As a joint heir with Christ in the Kingdom.
I was looking out my dentist's door today while waiting on my oldest son. It occurred to me that I will be 30 years old next month (December 11 :) ). I couldn't believe it. Not because I am "getting older" but because of a report that was given to me a long time ago. When I was younger, at age 14, I was diagnosed with Fibrositis (a muscle disease now called Fibromyalgia) and Chronic Fatigue Immune Deficiency Syndrome. This was two years after I was diagnosed with Migraines, Chronic Migraines and Tension Headaches. The report was very bleak. Consent pain, nerve and muscle damage. Added onto the report was that I would be in a wheel chair by the age of 30. The reason the doctors said this was because over 15 years ago they didn't have the tools to manage this disease. Not to mention that the average age diagnosed with Fibrositis was 45 and by the age of 60 they were, at the very least, walking with a cane.
Today I rejoice! Today I am looking at my 30th birthday coming up and PRAISE GOD I am walking! I am riding bikes! I am working out (when I do it)! I am healthy. I no longer suffer from headaches! GLORY I no longer suffer from muscle pain! GLORY
The enemy tried to get me to believe that I was slipping back into agony. Over the summer he did everything in his power to manipulate my body. To make me give back my healing. At one point I had started to believe that I was going insane. There was a battle over me this summer. But just like God was faithful to Job, God was faithful to me.
God has given me so much. I have a beautiful family. I am healthy. I am happy. I am writing. My dreams and desires are aligned with God and He is blowing my socks off!
I have always enjoyed getting older. This year will be the greatest yet. I look forward to this next decade. God and I have been on quite the journey. I can only imagine what we will do next! GLORY!